Holding on to you

“If I had my live to live again, I’d find you sooner.”
-Kobi Yamada

I knew from the moment i saw him that he stood out from the crowd. Even if he didn’t mean to.

He tried to shrink away from the crowd, he tried to make himself appear smaller.

she tried to talk less and avoid eye contact. even with those big honey brown eyes of his.

By oliver, I wanted to talk to him.

I wanted to get to know him.

and i didn’t even know why.

I got up the courage to talk to him, I spoke to him for less than a minute.

I couldn’t stop thinking about seeing him today. 

I got up early just to brush my teeth and fix my hair and wear a nice dress.

He probably doesn’t even know my name.

but I don’t care.

Something inside of me is stirring to talk to him, to get to know him, to tear away the walls built around us.

It took days, weeks, maybe months, but I did it.

I could live a lifetime of happiness just to be with him again.

He said my name.

I couldn’t believe that I was hearing it from his lips, but he said it. I so desperately wanted to kiss… 

He said my name aloud so the world could hear.

but he is my world.

and i wish that i could hear him say it alone, for me.

My heart beats and flutters, threatening to tear out of my chest cavity. 

he said my name.

he said my name.

It sounded like an accident, sounded like he didn’t mean to say it. but he did. my name, my very name came from his tongue.

am I dreaming? Is this real life? because I’m walking on clouds right now.

The boy who I can’t get out of my head knows I exist, knows my name.

It’s a dream come true.

I wanted to kiss him today.

I know that sounds incredibly stupid and immature and I don’t even know if he loves me
in return, but I desperately wanted to. It was an urging deep within my soul, telling me that this is right, that he is right and perfect and I love him so much. 

But I can’t. not until he loves me in return.

because one kiss could mean that he never speaks to me again,

or it could mean that he loves me,

and will love me forever.

I can’t take a chance.

so impatiently, I will wait and see.

End of the road

At the end I hope you find yourself looking back at those hurdles that gave you nightmares and realise that without those your journey wouldn’t have been utterly dull and pointless

Real life..

You came out of nowhere,
Your words were magic,
You played gimmick,
I became euphoric,
Then I was hurt from reality’s kick.

Love or Lust?

“Want SEX come straight.
She will appreciate your destiny
And probably say YES.

But damn don’t give her hopes
Of love if all you want
out of her is pleasure.

And don’t give it a name of LOVE
If LUST is all over your mind.”

Sex and Love

People Are Always Talking About How Sex With Someone You Love Is Better But I Don’t Really See How That Can Be True. Sex Is Sex, Either You Have Chemistry And Know How To Do It Or You Don’t. I Don’t Know How Love Could Magically Grant Anyone Mystic Sex Powers That Suddenly Make It Better. It’s 100% Possible To Still Have Bad Sex With Someone You’re In Love With😏

So Let Us Not Goof Up Sex With Love. Love Is Important I Agree. But Sex Is Equally Important And Both Cannot Survive Without Each Other. We Are So Busy To Discuss The Sex Life Of Other People Around Us 😡

You Want To Love And Then Proceed To Physical Intimacy, We Agree And Respect Your Decision. But Lets Not Be Judgemental About Those Who Enjoys Intimacy Without Falling In Love. They Respect You And Expects You To Respect Them Back.😇

Sex Is Eternal, Pure, Sensual And Important Aspect Of A Successful Relationship Just Like Love♥️

Life Is Too Short To Hold Onto Your Desires. Have Sex, Make Love, Stay Happy. Stay Cool.
Cheers Everyone & Stay Blessed.
(this is purely my thought process and I don’t expect anyone to agree/disagree to me. Thanks for reading and keep following…)

Life Lessons I’ve Learned on My Winding Road.

This ‘life lessons’ post actually came about courtesy of a friend. He said, “You write about love, heartbreak and never on life, so why don’t you do one”?

So, it isn’t the most original concept, but no doubt there’s something in here that will inspire someone, somewhere.

Life Lessons I’ve Learned on My Winding Road

No one else can make you happy. Intimate relationships will distract you from yourself and offer temporary sanctuary, but facing your demons – your fears, insecurities, negative past experiences, wrong doings and shortcomings – requires you to look in the mirror, alone.

We are often let down by the most trusted people and loved by the most unexpected ones. Some make us cry for things that we haven’t done, while others ignore our faults and just see our smile. Some leave us when we need them the most, while some stay with us even when ask them to leave.

Work less, if you can. There will be no reward on your deathbed for all those extra hours you put in at the office, but there will be no regret for the extra time you spent with the people you cherish.

If you need a reminder of what happiness looks like, watch children playing together.If you want to understand mindfulness, watch children playing together.

You can’t change the world, but you can be the change. Don’t neglect fighting for the things you feel passionately about because you think your voice is too small and that not enough people care. One voice is capable of creating a huge echo.
When possible, go to bed early and wake up early. It is amazing how much more you get done and how much more zest for life you have when you wake with nature’s curtain. Sleep is not something your health can afford to skimp on, either.

Exercise every day. Humans are made to move. Our ancestors roamed approximately 19km a day. So walk, run, lift, jump, stretch. Whatever you can do, put aside time each day to oil your engine. It makes you feel wonderful; inspired, creative, enthusiastic, happy.Your health is your wealth.

Life is too short to spend it living out the expectations of others. This is your journey. Make it your story.

Don’t rush through life chasing your tail. It might be cliche, but stop every now and again to look around and notice life. Meditation, chilling out and listening to music, or just sitting on your doorstep are wonderful ways to bring the mind home for a while.

Be the change you want to see in the world. Simple. Only ever lend what you can afford to lose.

Make mistakes and remain a creative being. School teaches us that mistakes are bad and to be avoided, but mistakes are a valuable part of the creative process. No life-changing invention has been created, or fulfilling life lived, without a few mistakes along the way. Keep inventing, keep reinventing, keep failing (learning) and always explore your ideas as best you can

The world is a mixture of people. We just need to know which hand to shake and which hand to hold. After all that’s life, learning to hold on and learning to let go.

If some of these things resonate with you, great. If you disagree with some of my points, that’s great too; go and start your own list and live your life, your way.


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